The Hurt and the Healer

Have you ever listened to a song that made you cry and feel joy at the same time?  This one does it for me.  I have many things going on in my life right now, and some of them are painful.  I am not happy with myself today, I struggle to be the woman that God created me to be.  When I fail it breaks my heart and causes me to distance myself from my Savior, the only one who can help me.  Being away from Him is the last place I need to be right now.

I have to stop and gather myself together.  I ask for His help.  Heal me, Lord!  Take away the pain.  Take away the despair.  Only You, Lord, only You.  Stay with me!  Hallelujah!  All the glory to You, Lord!  Remind me that I am not alone.

God bless you, dear Reader.

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Take My Load, Jesus

Today I lay my problems at His feet.  I can no longer carry the load of all the things that weigh me down.  I have tried, heaven knows I've tried, to drag them along with me day after day so that I would always remember them.  I have laid claim to these trials and burdens and although they seem to grow larger everyday, I still manage to wrap a rope around them and haul them from my bed in the morning to my workplace and back home and to church, and back home, and then they just sit in this massive heap next to the bed waiting for me to wake up so that I can shoulder them once more.

Why do I do that, Lord?  Why don't I throw them out like the rubbish they are?  They are doing me no good.   How do I make the change and go on without them?  It's crazy, these are the things that make me worry, the things that make me cry, the things that hold me captive.  These things are what the enemy has told me is fact.  Is it fact?  That my prayers won't be answered?  That I am nothing?  That things won't change?

No, it's not fact, unless I let it be, and more assuredly, it's not truth!  The Bible tells me otherwise.  I am not going to listen to myself today.  I am not going to try to fix what I can't.  I am just not going to carry the broken things with me anymore.  At least for today.  Jesus is the healer and fixer.  I must rely on Him to take these hopes of happiness and restoration and salvation and healing and make them manifest in my life.  He said He would.  I just have to let go. 

No more burden for me today!  Jesus, my God, my Savior, I lay them at Your holy feet!  Restore broken relationships in my family, heal the sick, mend the brokenhearted, and open my eyes to Your love for me!  I am aware of what today is.  Only You can make tomorrow better.  I give my load to You to carry, Jesus, at least for today.  I'll trade loads with You.  Let me rest knowing that You are in command of my life.  I am weary. 

I love You, my God, my Deliverer!

"Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”   " Matt 11:28 -30